Welcome to TraceyTobin.WordPress.com!

Some time ago, I went through my online presence, disposed of a great deal of excess, and created NoPageLeftBlank.wordpress.com as a place to bring what was most important to me into one spot. At the time it worked wonders, but over the years that have passed since then quite a lot has changed. I am now a published author and a growing YouTuber, and as a result of those things my online presence has once again gotten convoluted. So, with that in mind, I’d like to introduce you to what I’m hoping will be my new-and-improved personal space.

This blog will not be specifically for me as an author, or me as a YouTuber, and it will not be a place specifically meant for blogging or marketing or any other individual issue. TraceyTobin.Wordpress.com will be for me, in whatever form that takes. I will talk about the writing process and what’s happening with my books, I’ll share my YouTube videos and other geeky nonsense as I see fit, and I’ll blog as I desire. This site will be me in my entirety, as I see fit.

So if you’ve come here from NoPageLeftBlank.wordpress.com, thank you very much for following me into this new venture, and if you’re new, welcome! You may see some strange things happening here in the following weeks as I create back-dated posts to share older YouTube videos, but moving forward expect to see lots more of, well…me!

Cheers!

Plans & Goals 2021: Week 8

My dear people…welcome! Welcome…to March!

Yes, we have moved into a new month, full of new possibilities and new potential for disaster, but let’s try to brush that latter one under the rug for now and pretend that all is well and absolutely nothing is lurking in the shadows just waiting to take a bite out of us.

*cough cough*

Anywho… Another week has passed, and the first thing that I can happily report is that it passed without any absolutely earth-shattering hangovers! Huzzah! I mean, the real key there is that I didn’t have so much as a sniff of alcohol throughout the week, but hey, a win is a win.

It was a fairly calm week without a whole lot going on, to be honest. We did have a fair bit of snow, but it was followed by rain and/or mild weather, so we didn’t even actually have to shovel anything. Which was great, because my body has been particularly sore lately, so I don’t think I could have handled it.

But yeah…fairly boring week all around, so I suppose I’ll just go ahead and get into the main bits.


Health

Let me preface this section this week by stating that I haaaaaaaaaate my body. That’s not specifically a hit at the visual aesthetic (although the gut and flub and whatnot is definitely firmly in the “I hate this” category), moreso it’s a comment on how shitty I feel on an almost constant basis.

I feel absolutely confident in stating that most of the problem likely stems from simply being overweight – because, make no mistake, I am quite overweight for my age and overall framework. The problem is that the aches and pains and heavy breathing and so-on that come as a result of being overweight, make it excruciatingly difficult to do anything about being overweight. I’m sore all the time you guys. Sitting here right now typing this out, my neck hurts, my shoulders hurt, my lower back hurts, the front side of my thighs hurt, and I’ve got a mysterious, unexplained ache in the top of my right foot. Oh, and my left knee is still cracking every time I walk, driving me rather past the point of madness.

Point is: I hate my body.

Of course, the only way to combat this hatred is to fix it, so I reluctantly and frustratedly continue to work toward that goal, despite failing miserably thus far.

Concerning food: this is probably my main problem right now. I do well early on in the day, and I’ve been drinking tons of water, plus coffee and tea to help suppress hunger, and I’ve been trying hard to work more fruits and veggies into my diet. The problem is that I have finite willpower, and by the time the evening comes I’m sneaking off to nibble on whatever I can find that’s sweet because that little voice in my stomach is telling me it’ll be fiiiine. That little voice is a lying bitch, FYI.

Concerning exercise: I’ve been doing alright here, although the aforementioned aches and pains aren’t exactly helping. I’ve managed to get through a week of Morning Meltdown 100 Prep videos, so that’s awesome, and I took a couple of walks last week as well. I’m happy with that, for sure, but man… I hate to sound like a whiny bitch, but damn if it isn’t hard to keep moving when so many things hurt! I actually thought one of my hips was going to pop out of alignment this morning while I was doing burpies. And they weren’t even proper burpies! UGH. I really, really hope that things start to feel better by the time I’ve finished the Prep weeks and gone on to the main program…


Creativity

Generally, this tends to be my most positive section, and it will probably remain so this week. That said, I’m a little surprised by how little I actually got done creatively this past week. My brain has just been a little blank recently – I’m blaming low-grade background stress that never seems to go away – so every time I sit down to do something creative it ends up being a very slow, low-productivity session.

Looking at art, I only did one new piece last week. I didn’t have any commission requests, but I decided to just do something fun for myself one evening, and this was the result:

I’m pretty pleased with it and might try my hand at coloring it at some point…since the only colors would be his hair and skin it might be a good exercise to see if I can figure out the shadows and whatnot.

Writing, of course, was a whole other beast, and I’m somehow both pleased and annoyed with my results for the week. On the one hand, I demolished my Pacemaker.press goal for the week; the site wanted me to write 6482 words, and I came out in the end with 7536 words. Over a thousand more than it was asking for! Damn right!

On the other hand, I was actually intending to write quite a bit more…but every time I sat down with my Chromebook in front of me it was like the words refused to come. I did manage to get a fair bit written toward another fanfic I’m working on, but I’m doing that one longhand, writing in a notebook, so it’s much slower-going than the projects I’m typing directly.

Long story short, I need some kind of shock to the brain to shake the words out. And I especially need it during this coming week, because after three weeks in a row of taking it pretty easy on me, Pacemaker has now decided that it’s time to ramp things up. After being asked to write just under 6500 words last week, it now wants me to write over 12,000 words by next week. Wish me luck, my friends.

And if you have any foolproof cures for writer’s block, kindly send them along!


Productivity

Last week I breezed through this section because, as I explained, I couldn’t really recall how the week had gone concerning ‘getting shit done’.

This week I’m actually still hanging on that same thread. I know I got stuff done – for instance, a truly astounding amount of laundry, some grocery shopping, and applying for multiple jobs – but most of the week is once again a bit of a blank. I would like to reference something I said earlier in this post, and say that I blame low-grade background stress. I believe I may have developed something of a short-term memory issue as a result of just kinda buzzing with anxiety all the bloody time.

As far as numbers are concerned, nothing major happened this past week. The YouTube Twitter gained three followers, while the Instagram account remained the same. The Author Twitter gained one follower, and the Instagram lost two. Nothing worth writing home about, basically.


Down-Time

Well, first off, I can tell you that I did actually do a bit of gaming. Mostly I worked on “Jedi: Fallen Order”, which I had a lot more left of than I’d thought. I’m getting close to endgame now, but I got stuck on a boss last night whom I would very much like to murder viscerally. Maybe I’ll try again tonight when I’ve managed to gather my pride up off the ground.

I also tried out the Nintendo Switch demo for “Little Nightmares 2”, upon my daughter’s request. She tried it first and rather enjoyed it, so I checked it out too and thought it was quite fun. None of us ever played the first game, but they might be worth picking up if we see them on sale anywhere. The aesthetic is equally cute and creepy with just that hint of frustration in the game-play and puzzle-solving to keep you gritting your teeth and moving forward. Plus, you know…creepy stuff. Love it.

I’ve also had a major urge to play “Dead Nation” again recently. It happens every now and then. It’s just such a fun top-down shooter bullet-storm! Plus Jason has been playing a Contra game that has a similar aesthetic, so every time I see that it reminds me of the awesomeness I have sitting on my PS Vita. I’m trying to resist, though, because I really should be playing the giant stack of games that isn’t even open yet…

In the reading category, I’m still working my way through “DarkDawn”, and starting to feel as though it’s spawning new pages as I read. Seriously, I’ve sat down to work on it numerous times in the past week, and I feel like I haven’t actually gotten anywhere. I’m thoroughly enjoying the book, make no mistake about that, but I just feel a bit like I’ve been reading it forever and have somehow managed to go backwards. I feel, in other words, as though I’m never going to get to the bloody end!

And then we have the watching category, which has been a bit all over the place. Jason and I watched “Relic” last night, which was decent and had some particularly creepy bits. We also watched the newest “Wrong Turn” movie, which was odd in places but had kind of an interesting twist to it and was overall enjoyable to watch. We also finished off “Community” and caught up on “WandaVision”, and haven’t really figured out what we’re going to watch next now that we don’t have those to rely on.


Thus we come to the end of another weekly review post. I’ve managed to exacerbate the soreness in my lower back and neck while writing this, so you’ll excuse me if I don’t stick around to banter any longer. I’ve got Icy Hot to rub on myself and Extra Strength Tylenol to indulge in.

Feel free to let me know how your year is going so far! Do you have any big goals? Specific plans? Anything awesome on the horizon? Share what’s going on with you! ❤

“The Scent of Desire” – Chapter 17 [A Good Omens AU]

Oh me, oh my, what is happening here? Why does our dear Aziraphale seem so nervous? What has our delightfully loving alpha got in store for his darling omega? 

I suppose you’ll just have to read Chapter 17 to find out!

Enjoy, my sweets!

Plans & Goals 2021: Week 7

Ladies and gentlemen, let me tell you a tale…it is a tale of pain and woe, wrapped in a tale of friendship and festivity…

Which is to say that I got fantastically drunk this past Friday, to the point that I’m only pretty much properly okay as of this morning. @_@

Backtracking just a tad… Last week Jason’s cousin went into the hospital and had her second child, our new little family cutie: Monty. Justin (a.k.a. ‘Cousin-in-Law’, a.k.a. the brother of the one who just had the baby) suggested that we take a trip ‘down home’ to meet the new little bundle, and in the process meet and have a few drinks with his girlfriend. We concurred, and thus babies were cooed over, a girlfriend was introduced, and a quite spectacular amount of alcohol was drunk.

All things considered it was a pretty good night…at least, the first half of it. I got along spectacularly with Justin’s girl, who is much more like me than either of us are like any of the rest of the family, so that’s nice! The problem is that she and I, as well as Justin, all got so magnificently pissed, that Jason was actually the voice of reason.

Long story short, it was a fun night, but when I finally managed to claw my way out of bed on Saturday I was as sick as I’ve ever been after a night of drinking. So sick, in fact, that I couldn’t even keep down water. It was a bad scene, and I’m honestly, genuinely considering going perma-sober, because…damn. I seriously thought I might pass out of dehydration by the time liquids finally started staying where I was putting them. Even the following day (Sunday, if you’re not paying attention) was miserable to the point of barely leaving the couch until it was time to go back to bed.

And all of this is, of course, a very roundabout way of explaining why I got absolutely nothing done from Friday through to this morning.

And with that nonsense out of the way, let’s see what I did manage to pull off last week.


Health

Okay, so, considering the story I just told you’re probably going to assume that health-related stuff wasn’t exactly piling up on my “Wins” stack this past week. Surprisingly, you’d be mostly wrong.

Yes, obviously the weekend is pretty up there with one of the unhealthiest three-day periods I’ve had in quite a while, but when you look at the week as a whole it actually wasn’t all that bad.

Concerning food, I had a pretty decent week for paying attention to my calorie count, avoiding snacking, avoiding high-fat foods, and cramming myself full of vegetables. Did I have little muck-ups? Sure I did! But overall, I was pretty diligent and managed to avoid any major missteps. Normally Friday night’s escapades definitely would have been the dagger in my diet’s back, so to speak, but I was so occupied with bonding with my new friend that I barely ended up snacking at all…which, in retrospect, was probably half of the reason I got so bloody sick, but…at least I didn’t sabotage my weight loss? Yeah, no, it sounded stunned even as I was typing it. I deserved my two days of sickness.

Anyway, regarding exercise, you might remember that last week at this time I had started “PiYo”, which is one of the Beachbody programs. That lasted precisely two days. Not to say that it’s a bad program or anything, but it definitely wasn’t for me. For one thing, it’s a fusion of pilates and yoga (something I probably should have caught on to), and I’m not the biggest fan of yoga. For another thing, I’m so much over my healthy weight at the moment that half of the moves made my joints feel like they were going to snap. It wasn’t challenging, it was painful. So I stopped. Instead, I did some “Just Dance” and some around-the-house stuff for a few days while looking for a new program to try.

And on that topic I can inform you that, as of this morning, I’m giving “Morning Meltdown 100” a go. They’re short videos (less than 30 mins each) of high-intensity workouts designed for you to move with the dance-club-style music that is being played in the background. Right now I’m doing the “Prep” month, which I was going to skip, but I’m glad I didn’t. The first vid kicked my ass, so I obviously need the prep. Here’s to seeing how I feel after the 28 days of the prep schedule. In the meantime I’ll do my best to continue not eating like a sow. 😛


Creativity

I’m going to make a statement here: if I were actually, like…properly making a living wage from all the drawing and writing I’ve been doing, I would be a genuinely, mindblowingly happy woman.

That shouldn’t be a shocker or anything; I’m just making a statement. I’ve been seriously happy with the art I’ve been creating – both the visual and literary types – and pretty much the only thing at this point keeping me from a kind of creative nirvana is the fact that I’m only making nickles and dimes doing it. But hey…you never know what can happen, right?

On that note, I did a good bit of drawing last week, as evidenced by the three pieces I’m sharing this week. Firstly is a piece that I was commissioned to do out of one of my own fan-fics, in which Aziraphale loses any sense of shame or inhibition because of a lust potion:

Second is a little something I threw together for Valentine’s Day. It’s basically a redraw of a piece I did a while back for a scene from another fan-fic that got rather popular on AO3, “In Silence Our Secrets Lie”:

And lastly, a bit of a content warning on this one before you continue to scroll, as it is somewhat NSFW. The Twitter “Good Omens” fans came up with a fun idea for a bit of an artistic group project. Back when the GO crew created their little quarantine video last year, it was strongly suggested that Crowley was planning to sleep until the pandemic was over. As it is still going on, Neil Gaiman has regularly teased that, yes, Crowley is still sleeping, which prompted a fan-counter-tease (hey, you come up with a better thing to call it…) known as #WakeTheSnake. There have been lots of pieces of artwork, fics, comics, and more centered around the idea of waking Crowley up because he and Aziraphale should be spending their hard-earned freedom together. The most recent offshoot of this “movement” has been #ForbiddenFruit which, to put things simply, has involved filling the Twitter timeline with drawings of a certain naked angel in order to entice a certain demon to wake the hell up already.

Yeah, we’re a particular brand of especially passionate geek, so sue us.

Anyway, the point that I’m obviously coming to is that I did my own naked-angel piece. There’s nothing explicit shown, but just in case you’re not personally comfortable with a naked dude sitting with his legs crossed strategically, you should maybe scroll past the following image:

And with that bit of exposition out of the way, I shall finish off the visual art section of this post by simply stating, once again, that all the drawing has been making me quite happy. ^_^

AS HAS all the writing! See what I did there?

Now, to be perfectly honest, my word count went a bit sideways this past week. For one thing, I had a wee bit of writer’s block going on; I kept staring at every word file and finding it impossible to work out the next sentence. It was rather infuriating, all things told. Even still, I did manage to get a fair bit of writing done, and was set to get a fair bit more done…when the weekend hit. Really, you’d think that being laid up on the couch for two days would have actually resulted in some writing getting done, but that’s how sick I really was. I couldn’t even brain properly. Thus, as a result of those two days (plus the one on which the actual drinking took place), last week was the first week of 2021 during which I did not manage to keep up with the goal Pacemaker.press had set for me. Pacemaker wanted me to write 6786 words, and I only wrote 5967.

That said, I’m not too upset, because I’ve destroyed every other week thus far, meaning that I’m still ahead of the curve as far as what Pacemaker is expecting of me. Plus, looking more specifically at what I actually did manage to write last week, the majority of it was toward “The Other World: Book Three”, so yay for that!


Productivity

Okay, so, obviously you’re already assuming that I’m going to once again point out the weekend as an example of how things went off the rails for this post. And that would (again, obviously) be quite fair. What you might not be expecting me to say is that the black hole that was this weekend also managed to suck away any semblance of memory as to what occurred in the first four days of the week.

Yeah, I’m being a little overly dramatic about it. Shush.

The point being that I honestly can’t recall much of what got done in the early part of last week aside from selling a few things and doing that second art commission. And I really wish that I could remember, because if you look at the social media numbers you’ll find that everything went up. ._. We’re not talking big numbers or anything, but it so rarely happens that I can’t help but feel that I did something right…and now I can’t remember what it was. Figures.

FYI, if you’re interested in the actual numbers, the YouTube Twitter gained one follower, while the Instagram gained two; meanwhile the Author Twitter gained seven followers, with a gain of four on the Instagram.


Down-Time

I mean, if you really want to be technical about it, you can pretty much just say that the entire weekend was downtime and leave it at that.

But if you want to look at it in more specifics…

I did, in fact, play a game last week, in the form of returning to “Jedi: Fallen Order”. I only played for about an hour and a half, but that’s probably more than the previous 2-3 weeks combined, so, hey, it’s something! I’m very near to actually finishing the game as well, so that will be nice for a change. *cough cough* Once that’s over with I might return to “Borderlands 3”, which I can pick up whenever I want now that the PS4 is in a different room. That, or I might go back to “Mary Skelter”, which is a weird but enjoyable Vita game.

On an unrelated (but kinda related?) note, my daughter downloaded and tried out the demo for “Little Nightmares 2” yesterday, and it made me really interested to try out the original. But not for the bloody price they’re still asking for it. Geez, retailers…

Back on topic and moving on to books, I am still working my way through “Darkdawn” because I haven’t really been doing a lot of sitting down to read recently. I’ve picked at a few short fanfics here and there, but I haven’t carved out any decent pockets of time during which to get through a book. I’m hoping to finish it up soon though, because I’ve been antsy for a number of other books on my list.

As far as TV and movies are concerned, we’ve been binging the ever-loving hell out of “Community” lately. In retrospect it’s really hard to believe that this is one we skipped while it was actually airing. All the constant pop-culture references make it pretty much the perfect show for Jason and I. Aside from that, though, I’ve been picking away at “Supernatural” here and there while doing chores, and that’s pretty much been it unless you count all the hockey games we’ve been watching.


And hence we come to the end of another Monday post. All in all the week was…uh…you know, I don’t even really know how to describe it. It just…happened. And now it’s done. Soo…let’s hope that next week’s post is more positive and less…fantastically hungover. Sound good? Sounds good.

Feel free to let me know how your year is going so far! Do you have any big goals? Specific plans? Anything awesome on the horizon? Share what’s going on with you! ❤

“The Scent of Desire” – Chapter 16 [A Good Omens AU]

It’s time for a short intermission, of sorts! I know, I know, I’ve gotten you all used to the smutty goodness, but I thought it had been quite long enough since Crowley and Anathema had enjoyed one another’s company. So let’s have some sweet bestie love, shall we?

(And don’t worry, the smut will be back soon enough…lol)

Enjoy Chapter 16, my loves!

“The Scent of Desire” – Chapter 15 [A Good Omens AU]

Monday means updates! Chapter 14 of The Scent of Desire has headed on over to AO3, and Chapter 15 is now in early-access for my lovely Patrons! ❤

It’s been a few days, and our lovely boys are still all over each other, though things are beginning to change a bit… An important conversation is had in this chapter; it involves a tiny bit of angst, but it’s all good, I promise. ^_~

And THEN…more smut. Bwa ha ha ha ha ha….

Enjoy! ❤