If there was a god of productivity and accomplishment, I’d be praying in supplication to it right now, begging for forgiveness. Forgive me, Mother (I see such a god as being feminine in nature), for I have sinned. I have sinned HARDCORE.
“Say three Hail Gaimans and pledge a donation to the Office of Letters and Light.”
Yes, of course, your holy greatness.
Okay, clearly I’ve completely lost my mind. But you never know…maybe that will turn out to be a good thing. Maybe I could use a little insanity to give me some motivation, however psychotic. In fact, psychotic might be perfect for my zombie WIP. A writer has to have a little bit of psychotic in her to write about gory, animalistic murder.
Where was I? I believe my brain may have left my head and is moving on a tangential path as far away from me as it can get.
THE POINT, dear readers, is that, despite my claims that April was going to be “my month”, I’ve been doing very little to actually make that happen. There are numerous reasons and excuses I could give, some of them understandable, some of them not so much, but in the end it really all comes down to putting in the effort. Which I haven’t been doing.
Forgive me, Mother, for I have sinned. It’s been less than a week since my last confession. Here we go:
Goal #1: Write half a million words.
Worst. Week. EVAH!
In week 15 I wrote a grand total of 1586 words, about half of them my week-in-review post from last week, and the other half a blog post that I decided not to share for personal reasons. That was it. That. Was. IT.
My Pacemaker.press account wanted me to write 12,025, so that makes it an even bigger failure than it seems at first. I wrote approximately 13% of what I was supposed to. Can you imagine making a 13% on a test on which you’re allowed to answer the questions however you damn-well please? Because that’s pretty much what I did last week. I bombed a Answer-However-You-Want test. Bombed it BAD.
- Goal #1a: Write at least a quarter million fictional words. And to make matters even worse, absolutely zero percent of those words were fictional ones. ZERO fiction. I wrote NO fiction for an entire week. Just send me to Novelist Hell right now!
Goal #2: Read at least 50 books.
I’m still working my way through Pet Sematary, which I forgot to bring to work a couple of days in a row and thus got behind on. I’m about halfway through it now, and I’m starting to tense up for the really bad stuff that’s about to happen. The book has been creepy up to this point, but soon it’s going to go absolutely MISERABLE. In a way I’m a bit sad that I know (in general) what’s going to happen because of having seen the movie ages ago. The events to come would have been an astounding shocker otherwise. But hey, I’m enjoying it anyway, so that’s what matters!
Goodreads is still telling me that I’ll stay the course if I read a book a week, but I might plow through a manga or two this week just to make sure that I stay ahead of the curve. I’ve been wanting to read the Junji Ito one Jason got me for Christmas anyway.
Goal #3: Build my social media communities…EVERYWHERE!
This stuff is ALL over the place, let me tell you. For the most part I think I’ve been doing okay with the social media stuff, posting pics, Tweeting away, that kind of thing… Yet everything seems to be bouncing. It feels like I’ve been hovering around the same numbers for months now because they’ll go up…then back down…then back up…and so on. It’s driving me foolish, to be honest.
For week 15:
- The YouTube channel gained 4 subscribers
- The YouTube Twitter account went down 1 followers
- The YouTube Instagram account went up 15 followers
- The Snapchat account’s score went up by 2 points
- The Author Twitter account lost 2 followers
- The Author Instagram account lost 3 followers
Those aren’t awful numbers (except that, of course, negative ones always suck), so I’ll leave it at that for now, but I’m really hoping to see a more positive result next week if I can stick with everything and not go silent at all.
Goal #4: Play more (proper) video games.
My gaming has been a little sporadic of late. I played a bit of the TellTale Game of Thrones game yesterday while waiting for the new season to launch. And I finished The Room 3, which was awesome. The Witness went on the back-burner though, and Borderlands 2 is still on hold because I haven’t been in the mood to deal with my Vita freezing up.
Sometime this week I hope to get back into the Witness, and maybe I’ll look into what’s up with Borderlands 2 as well. But I also want to actually put some of my spare time into writing this week, so we’ll just have to see what happens.
Goal #5: Put more time, focus, and energy into the YouTube channel.
You know what? I’m just going to refuse to comment on this one this week. It will come. Eventually. I promise.
A slightly shorter post this week because, as you can see, I don’t really have anything good to report. And to be blunt, I’m trying to be more upbeat and positive, so there’s no sense dwelling on a shitty week. Right? Right. Thus ends the confession. Smile upon me this week, my goddess!
How was your week? Did you accomplish any goals? Make any new ones? Do anything else that made you feel awesome and accomplished? Feel free to share in the comments!