“In Silence Our Secrets Lie” – A Good Omens FanFic – Chapter 20

It’s strangely bittersweet, but Chapter 20 is the last (plot-important) chapter of “In Silence Our Secrets Lie“. There will be an epilogue, but that is going to be totally self-indulgent fluff-and-smut that has no bearing on the overall story. Therefore we can officially call “Silence” complete.

This story has been such a fun ride. It was my most enjoyable write in quite some time and I will honestly miss it! All the lovely comments and fanart I received were beyond wonderful, and really spurred me on to write more and more. As a result, “Silence” ended up being my longest ever completed work of fiction, currently sitting at just under 80k words. To be able to say that an idea for a fanfic turned into a fully-fleshed out piece of writing that is nearly 30k-words longer than any of my actual NOVELS is quite a thing. I’m incredibly proud of it and incredibly happy that so many people (~11,000 hits atm!) have enjoyed reading it.

If you’ve been reading, thank you so much for your support!
If you’re a fan of fluff-n-smut be sure to keep an eye out for the bonus epilogue!
And if you’re hungry for more, please subscribe to my AO3 account, as there will be plenty more coming in the future!

~Love and kisses!~

“In Silence Our Secrets Lie” – A Good Omens FanFic – Chapter 14 -19

Whoops! I, uh…I’ve clearly forgotten to report updates to you guys! Gomen nasi!

So…there are five new chapters since the last time I reported! *nervous laughter*

For those of you who may not have come across it yet, “In Silence Our Secrets Lie” is an alternate-universe Good Omens fan-fiction, based on the concept that Aziraphale and Crowley never met until a year before the apocalypse. When they did meet, it was the result of Aziraphale finding a broken, bloodied Crowley chained up, voiceless, and powerless in a cave, having clearly been imprisoned and tortured.

It sounds harsh, and yeah, there’s angst and a bit of violence, but there’s also a ton of fluff and romance, just sayin’!

Chapter 14 begins right after Crowley has been abducted and Aziraphale has just met the humans who will help stop the Apocalypse. Reading through to chapter 19 brings us nearly to the end! There will be at least one more chapter after this, and perhaps a gratuitous epilogue. ^_~ Enjoy!

Plans & Goals 2020: Week 21 Review

So, right off the bat, WordPress has a new editor system which I’m trying out with this post, and because of my scrutinizing of said system, I noticed that for the past TWENTY WEEKS I’ve been titling these posts as “Plan & Goals” instead of “Plans and Goals”. Apparently I only have one plan, you guys. One track mind and all that.

WHY DID NO ONE TELL ME?

Okay, okay…I can get past this. 😛 MOVING ON!

I mentioned last week that my mind has been a bit…off lately. That has not changed. I’m not sure exactly what it is, but I’m not above blaming the multiple facets of the Covid pandemic. That said, I think the fact that we’re finally getting some decent spring weather is starting to help. Waking up to sunlight and actually experiencing that sunlight for the full day is definitely pleasant. I actually went out and did some gardening the past two days in a row, and the physical activity is quite nice. On that same note though: fuck vines. Fuck them in their stupid viney arses.

(To clarify, the snaky bastards look pretty for about a week while they’re blooming their pretty purple flowers, but after that all they do is sneak underneath everything and destroy my other landscaping, not to mention our backyard deck. -_-)

Okay, I don’t really have a lot else to talk about this week that isn’t directly related to goals, so let’s go ahead and get into it.


Goal #1: Be Healthier

Okay, so…you know what? It would be easier to just go ahead and get into the sub-goals to best explain what’s going on here…

  • Eat better (and less) – In an overall sense, I would say that this goal has been going decently over the past week, but there were some definite hiccups. Said hiccup’s name is Justin. (Sorry bro…lol) Social distancing restrictions have been relaxed a bit in Nova Scotia, and as a result we had a visit from Jason’s cousin for two nights in the middle of the week. I’m always up for company – especially company that enjoys drinking and playing random games (we learned Unstable Unicorns this time!), but it also reasonably leads to overeating. And it seems as though whenever I have one of those gorging days, it takes three to four days before I can convince myself to STAHP.
    To clarify; I definitely overate this week. But with that said, I don’t feel like I overate enough to justify what I’m going to explain a bit further down…
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  • Drink more water – Water has been no problem. I’m drinking tons, especially first thing in the morning. I drink coffee and tea too, but have been making sure to sneak in glasses of water between them so I don’t get behind. Two thumbs up for me here.
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  • Get more exercise – This one is a double-edged knife. So, I did do all my P90X2 vids last week, even with the drinking nights involved. All well and good there, no major issues or anything.
    The problem actually came this morning. I was set to start a new video, since I’m now on the second month of the program, but it just wasn’t happening. I kinda felt like the universe was trying to tell me something, to be honest. First the file just refused to play, even after trying several different players, then my Chromebook just froze up, refusing to download any other apps and being slow as sin. Then, after over half an hour, when I finally got the video playing…I couldn’t do any of the goddamn exercises. The vid is almost entirely pull-ups/chin-ups (which I am physically incapable of doing) and varieties of push-ups (which I can only do about ten off before my arms collapse underneath me).
    Long story short, the entire morning was very discouraging overall, and I ended up giving up on the vid about halfway through in a frustrated rage. I went out and did some gardening instead.
    Long story short addendum: I’d chosen to skip the optional “rest week”, but after today’s epic failure I think I might take it after all, and spend the week doing Zombies Run missions instead. Then I’ll see how I feel next week.
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  • Lose 2 lbs per month – So…here’s the thing. Fuck my life. That’s the thing.
    Okay, okay, so…the real thing is that I’m honestly beginning to believe that I can’t lose weight anymore. I know that’s stupid and untrue, but it’s definitely feeling like it. Because, you see…yeah, sometimes I have bad days and overeat or whatever, but in a general, overall view of things, I’ve been doing well and exercising my ass off. And yet, I might – might – lose a pound or two, only to put it back on a few days later. Overall I have accomplished NOTHING concerning my weight since the beginning of the year. And before anyone brings up muscle gain and changes in body composition and whatnot…no. I’ve taken measurements, I’ve taken photos throughout, and I’ve kept track of things like body fat percentage, and NOTHING IS CHANGING.
    And honestly, I don’t know if I have the energy to give a fuck anymore. It’s getting exhausting trying to care. I’m seriously considering saying fuck it and just buying a whole new wardrobe that fits my stubborn-ass body.

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Goal #2: Be an Author

Writing, as has become the case over the past year or so, seems to be my one constant that hasn’t been disappointing me terribly.

  • Write 500,000 words throughout the year – I spent most of the week working on “In Silence Our Secrets Lie” because it’s nearly done and I’m excited to have it complete (although it is a bit bittersweet, I’ll admit). I also dabbled a bit with a piece I’m writing as a compliment to a comic I’ve been enjoying, and finally I did a bit of (good!) work on “The Other World: Book Three”. Over those three projects I managed to scrape together 13,263 words over the past week, which makes me feel all warm and fuzzy. It’s especially nice since my Pacemaker.press account was only looking for 11,219 words. Yay for continuing to kick the weekly goals’ asses!
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  • Promote published books – I did something totally unprecedented this past week: I set up a Kindle ad campaign.
    It’s only a small one, as cheap as I could go with their defaults, but it’s something, right? Mainly I’m curious to see whether the campaign actually accomplishes anything. Thus far I don’t really see anything worth reporting. One ebook sale and some KU pages read, but that’s it.
    I’m also waiting to hear from Kindle on the fact that my “Ad Campaigns” page is a blank white slate with no stats or anything. Kinda hard to see if it’s doing anything that way.
    I also mentioned last week that I’d joined BookBub as a possible advertising venue and was waiting to get confirmation on my author profile. That’s all good now, but I haven’t set up any ads with them yet. There are a few different options and I want to try to figure out what’s going to give me the best bang for my buck if I’m going to be spending money.
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  • Promote Patreon & exclusive content – Shhhhhiii- Okay, so…I just, like…totally forgot about Patreon this past week. Sorry my lovely Patrons! I promise I’ll find some stuff to post over the next few days!
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  • Work on Author social media – I haven’t really got anything to report here for this week. Social media has been a steady but slow process with me lately. No excuses or anything, just stating the facts.
    As far as the author accounts, the Twitter lost two followers and the Instagram gained one, so…nothing to really speak of.
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Goal #3: Be a YouTuber

Can I just skip this entire section? No? Okay, okay, fine…

  • Film/edit/upload – Between me being sick (don’t worry, it was just some kind of sinus bug), then us having company for two days, then having other issues I was dealing with…yeah, nothing in particular happened. Jason and I started playing around with some editing last night, but there were some issues that we had to fix with the files, so not too much forward momentum occurred. We’re going to work on that vid again tonight, and maybe, if we’re lucky, it might get uploaded sometime before the end of days.
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  • Promote and Interact (Social Media) – *See the author section* Yeah, I’m not going to really get into it. The Twitter account gained two followers and the Instagram lost two, so the week was pretty much a wash.
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  • Expand website content – I refuse to address this section. Moving on.
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Goal #4: Be Fun!

Fun? Fun? Did someone say fun?

Well, there was the aforementioned visitation involving drinking and games. We played a couple of rounds of “Unstable Unicorns” (which lasted way longer than what the box claims), as well as a round of “80’s Trivial Pursuit” and “Name that Tune: 80’s DVD Edition”. The result was a high-quality drunkenness, and a lot of embarrassment on my part as I honestly don’t know who the fuck sings what…I’m all about lyrics and that’s it.

  • Read 50 books throughout the year – I read NOTHING last week! Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha…..NOTHING!
    Okay, that’s not entirely true: I read three more novel-length Good Omens fanfics. And while I can’t record those on my Goodreads app as part of my 50 books challenge, I still refuse to apologize. Some of these fics are fan-fucking-tastic. They’re well-written, engaging, and a couple even made me cry. So fuck you. I’m reading. It’s good. Moving on.
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  • Play video games – Gaming was had in short, erratic bursts last week. I played a little bit of Animal Crossing, a little bit of Smash Bros, a little bit of the Commodore 64 Mini, a little bit of Pac-Man Championship Edition 2, tried out Splatoon 2 for the first time (fun, but hard to get used to!), and I FEEL like I played Undertale, since Adrianna gave me a constant play-by-play while SHE was playing it.
    In particular, the C64 Mini bit was a blast. Jason, Justin, Adrianna, and I played a full round of Winter Games, and laughed our asses off at each other as we fought to try to learn the controls of each event. The highlight of the night was Jason managing to get a score of above 1 in the figure skating event. I thought I was gonna die laughing.
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  • Watch shows/movies – We’ve picked through a few episodes of random things over the past week (such as “What We Do In The Shadows”), but the main show we watched the past week was “Parasyte”, a 24-episode anime that’s playing on Netflix right now. It was fantastic, for the record. We devoured the whole show in two days. So yeah, there was that!
    As far as movies, I’m drawing a blank. I know we watched a few last week, but they must not have left a major impression because my brain is playing white noise as I try to remember. I know we had “The Running Man” playing while we were playing board games, and we showed Adrianna “Scott Pilgrim VS The World” (she loved it, fyi), but the rest of what I’m SURE we watched is caught in the back of my brain somewhere.
    OH!
    OH, I just remembered, we watched an old horror called “Dead Space”. It had a bit of an “Alien” vibe, but…awful. lol It might be worth watching for some just because it has a young Brian Cranston in it, but other than that, it was pretty lame.

Okay, I’ve jammed out a bunch of negativity in this week’s post, so I’m going to step back now, take a breath, and try to get myself into a better head-space for the current week. Wish me luck!


How was your week? Any accomplishments you want to share? Goals you worked hard on? Feel free to share in the comments! ❤

Plan & Goals 2020: Week 20 Review

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Did you know that today is Victoria Day? Because I didn’t! Not until I went to check the mail and found the post office closed. That’s how much social distancing has my sense of time destroyed. I hardly even know what month it is at any given time. Not that I’m complaining – I’m totally on board with social distancing to keep Covid.19 cases to a minimum. I’m just pointing out that I’m a total wreck mentally and chronologically.

ANYWAY.

What do I have to say before getting into the goals this week?

Well, for one thing, there’s the aforementioned mental wreckage. It could be due to the social isolation, or it could be one of any of a number of other things, but the result is the same: my brain feels scrambled lately. I’ve mostly noticed it when I’m trying to write. It seems like I can’t concentrate. I’ve actually found myself re-reading the chapter I’m working on multiple times because I keep forgetting what I was trying to do. Normally I would react to such a thing by making sure I’m getting enough sleep, drinking enough water, and making sure to take my vitamins (I’m deficient in a couple), but all those things are fine, so I’m not really sure what the issue is. I’d love if it would stop soon though. I hate feeling like I have “mommy brain” when my kid is nearly a bloody pre-teen.

For another thing, I’ll be mentioning this shortly, but I got sick near the end of the week and was more than a little bit concerned at first. Getting sick during a pandemic…that’s some scary shit right there. I didn’t honestly think that I’d somehow picked up Covid or anything, but you never know, especially since it can take so long to show symptoms.

For a third thing: one nice thing about being stuck at home is that I have plenty of time for Spring cleaning. By no stretch of the imagination am I saying that my house is clean, but I’ve definitely been getting lots of little things done here and there. For instance, I can actually SEE all the food that’s in my deep freeze now. And I’ve managed to straighten up the reading/writing room so that you can actually see the bloody floor. Baby steps, my friends, lots and lots of little baby steps.

Okay, I suppose that’s enough random babbling for now: on to the goals!


Goal #1: Be Healthier

Bwa ha ha ha ha ha ha ha…okay, sooo… I’m not going to get too down on myself, because the fact of the matter is that I did really try. The problem is that later in the week I got suddenly struck down with a random bug of some kind that hit hard and fast, without warning, and put me out of commission for pretty much the entire weekend. And if you know me at all, you’ll know that being sick does stupid things to my stomach.

  • Eat better (and less) – First off, I know this is the complete opposite of how most people react to sickness, but ever since I was a kid being sick has, counter-intuitively, made me ravenously hungry. Your guess is as good as mine. But the point is that during those days that I was feeling like crap, I ate a lot of really shitty food. In particular, I downed a ton of carbs. The result was that I pretty much undid the first three weeks of P90X-2 in three days. *cough cough*

    It’s not all bad though. The first part of the week was good, so it’s not like I rubber-banded in the opposite direction or anything. But bad things definitely occurred as a result of my sickly need for massive quantities of comfort food.
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  • Drink more water – There was a bit of a hiccup when I was sick, because even though I get ravenous during those times, I also get lazy and refuse to get up and get drinks. That said, I’ve been drinking a lot more water in general lately, and it seems to be helping a bit with cravings and the like. I’m still a total monster, food-wise, but I’ve been getting better. I think. Maybe? We’ll see.
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  • Get more exercise – Obviously exercise went by the wayside while I was sick. Luckily one of the days I was sick was a rest day, so that didn’t throw me off too much. I managed to catch up on the day I missed afterwards (I’d already done my exercises before I started to feel bad that first day), so overall nothing too bad occurred on this front.

    On a related note, some of the exercises are starting to get easier, and some more of the ones I couldn’t do at all are starting to become possible, so that’s good to see happening. It’s difficult to see progress in those first few weeks, so I’m happy to be able to report at least these little things.
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  • Lose 2 lbs per month – SHHHHHHHHHHH-
    Yeah, no, I don’t want to talk about it. This was the major downfall of getting sick. I just ate too much and moved too little, and now I’ve gone back to where I started. Fuck my life, etc etc.
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Goal #2: Be an Author

I expected to accomplish more last week, particularly considering the totally reasonable goal Pacemaker.press was asking of me, but between the fuzzy brain I mentioned and the weekend of being sick, I didn’t pull off nearly as much as I was hoping.

  • Write 500,000 words throughout the year – That said, I did still manage to kill my Pacemaker goal. It was asking for 6524 words, and I ended up writing 7622. That’s pretty decent, I think, considering that I was curled up in bed (or on the couch) for two full days (and a bit of a third). I’ve been focusing most of my attention on “In Silence Our Secrets Lie” because it’s nearly finished now, and while I’ve loved writing this fanfic it’ll be nice to have something crossed off the list.
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  • Promote published books – So, here’s the ridiculous thing… I decided to finally look into paid advertising – at least to see what the options are and what I can possibly afford – and that led me to Book Bub, which seems to be considered the best option for ROI. The problem is that before you can actually purchase advertisement from them, you have to ‘claim’ your author profile…and while it’s normally a simple process that involves searching up your books and pointing to them to say “those are mine”, none of my books actually showed up in the search. So I had to do a manual claim, which involves waiting for someone to check out my claim and ensure that it’s real. Annnnnnnd, that was about a week ago now. I’ve been checking, but my account still shows “pending approval”, and I can’t do anything until that happens. Very annoying. But I guess I’m heading in a direction (judgement pending on whether it’s a good direction).
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  • Promote Patreon & exclusive content – Phew, so…I really need to get something up the Patreon soon. We’re halfway through the month, FFS. Yeah, I kinda suck, there’s no two ways about it. *cough cough*
    That said, I found something the other day that I might share with my Patrons just to see what they think. It’s an unfinished short story I started scribbling out a while back and then totally forgot about it. I don’t really have the time right now to go transcribing it, but I happened to write it in my Rocketbook, so I might just give the pages a scan and post them as image files. My writing is tiny, but if they’re image files they could be easily blown up, and my writing is fairly impeccable so I don’t see anyone having trouble reading it. Anyway, it’s a thought! I’ll look into it more tonight.
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  • Work on Author social media – I’m starting to see a pattern when it comes to all my social media accounts… The first half of the week goes pretty well, and then the second half completely falls apart for any variety of reasons. This week it was, of course, getting sick. Honestly, you’d think that feeling like shit and cuddling up in bed would mean MORE time spent on my phone, but I spent most of my sick time either passed out, stuffing my face, or watching movies.
    With all that said, my author Twitter account lost a follower, but the Instagram account gained 7. Those seven people were almost definitely drawn in by posts about my Good Omens fics, so hi again, GO fandom! The Twitter account, well, that’s another story. To be fair, I hardly ever say anything of note on that account, nor do I interact much with other people’s. Making a note: talk to more people on Twitter.
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Goal #3: Be a YouTuber

Fffffffuuuuuuu- What day is it? What week? What year? *looks desperately around for help*

  • Film/edit/upload – Okay, so, honestly…fml. *ahem*
    No, but basically, Jason has put a veto on any more filming until we pull off actually posting the two vids we already have filmed. And I honest do agree with him, because otherwise we’ll end up with a ton of footage and no motivation to edit it, because that’s the hardest part.

    That said, we’ve been focusing on the editing aspect…which hasn’t been going incredibly well. There were several hiccups because of the new computer, the first of which was that lots of necessary files (like our opening, special images we import, and so on) were all on Jason’s old computer. And since said old computer has been dying a very slow and painful death, such that it takes nearly fifteen real-time minutes just to BOOT UP, getting those files transferred to the new computer was a hassle and a half. Then there was the fact that both of us had to try to learn the new version of Adobe Premiere, which isn’t hugely different, but different enough to cause lots of little aneurysms. Then Jason has to learn the new version of Photoshop, which IS hugely different and is causing major headaches as he can’t figure out how to do any of the stuff he’s used to doing. Etc, etc, ad nauseum. Basically…at some point in the near future there’s going to be a goddamn video, but it’s been dragging out an unwarranted quantity of blood, sweat, and tears in its wake.
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  • Promote and Interact (Social Media) – See what I said about the author accounts above. Being sick just makes me not want to interact with people, I suppose. My sickly siesta didn’t really affect the YouTube accounts though. Twitter stayed exactly the same and the Instagram lost 2 followers. Honestly, if I ever see the Instagram account manage to get past 1715 and STAY past that number, I’ll feel like a bloody miracle has occurred. But now that we’ve been getting some decent weather, maybe I’ll start wandering outside to take some fun toy pics and maybe that’ll start attracting some new people….hey, a girl can dream.
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  • Expand website content – Yeah, I know, you’re getting sick of hearing this, but I actually was intending to start writing some fun, non-video-related blog posts last week. It didn’t happen. Sue me. I was sick, and when I was writing I just wanted to write something fun. SUE. ME.
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Goal #4: Be Fun!

I’m gonna throw caution to the wind this week and state that I spent quite a bit of last week being NO FUN AT ALL. Hey, come on, how much fun are you when you feel like crap?

  • Read 50 books throughout the year – Nothing to report! Well, I mean, I suppose that I could report that I read three more novel-length alternate-universe Good Omens fanfics, but I can’t report that stuff on Goodreads, sooooo….
    In my defence they were all really good! Seriously, some of these fic writers should consider changing the names and distinguishing characteristics and publishing these stories as proper books. I’m totally going to have to post a list of my favorites, because some of them are fucking beautiful, I don’t care what anyone says.
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  • Play video games – My gaming brain has been bouncing all over the place lately. Mostly I’ve been playing little bits of “Animal Crossing” whenever I feel like taking a few moments for myself. I just bought a second room for my house! *shakes fist at Tom Nook*
    I also got back into “Borderlands 3” a few days ago though. I spent so much time trying to gain levels and find better gear so that I could beat that goddamn Katagawa Ball that now I’m pretty much running right into the middle of hoards of enemies and twirling around with guns a’blazin. Which, honestly, is quite fun, so…yup! It’s allllllll good.
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  • Watch shows/movies – The big story here for this week is that while I was sick Jason and I watched all five “Phantasm” movies over the course of two evenings. They are required watching for horror fans, in my opinion, but man…do they ever make no goddamn sense. The timelines and flashbacks and constantly changing random details for no particular reason really screw with your head. By the end of the fifth movie I honestly wasn’t sure if ANY of it had actually happened, or if it was all just one guy’s dementia dream, or what the fuck. Seriously, watch that series and tell me that you can make any goddamn sense of it.

    Aside from that, we finished catching up on “Food Wars” and started watching random episodes of “Gintama” while we still have our free trial of Crunchyroll. Both shows are totally worth watching for different reasons, but also because they’re both bat-shit insane.


So that was my second week of May! I wasn’t the greatest, all things told, but as a result of things that happened throughout the week I’m hoping that THIS week will be better. I’m not going to, like…bet on it or anything, but a girl can cross her fingers and hope for the best, right? Right. MAXIMUM EFFORT!

How was your week? Any accomplishments you want to share? Goals you worked hard on? Feel free to share in the comments! ❤

Plan & Goals 2020: Week 19 Review

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Happy Monday everyone!

Warning Note! I’m about to get “ranty” (hee hee hee), so if you’re not up for that, go ahead and skip down to the Goals sections!

Before I get into the bulk of today’s post, I just wanted to address a comment that I recently received on a “rant” I indulged in at the beginning of last week’s post. You can easily go back to the last post and check it out, but for simplicity’s sake, I basically stated that Donald Trump is a moron who regularly spouts nonsense, and I begged people to please ignore his off-the-wall and quite INCORRECT health advice concerning Covid (such as, for instance, ingesting a chemical that can have extreme side effects, which hasn’t even had any proper testing done to see if it affects Covid in any way, or…you know…drinking bleach). And I stand by that comment. If you’re worried about Covid, if you have questions, concerns, or have heard about possible treatments or ways of protecting yourself, ASK A HEALTHCARE PROFESSIONAL, not a businessman, regardless of his position in the government!

For my opinions (because, yes, I’ll happily admit that that is what they are, regardless about how true I believe them to be), I got a comment stating that I’d lost a subscriber/follower across all media platforms because of my decision to write a “TDS” rant on my personal blog. I don’t feel the need to respond to the commenter directly because if he was serious about cutting my existence out of his life over my words, he wouldn’t read that response anyway. But there are definitely a few things I want to point out to whomever else might read this follow up.

First off, I want to address the use of “TDS Rant” as his description of what I said. “Trump Derangement Syndrome”, seriously? I am literally laughing my ass off. The fact that supporters of the president have created this descriptor in the first place is just plain hysterical. I literally laughed out loud when I looked it up and found out what it meant. That aside, I’d love to know how pointing out that the man talks out of his ass far more often than he says anything of practical value makes me “deranged”. But you know what? If seeing the faults in his character and recognizing how easy it is to see the bullshit in his words makes me “deranged”, I’ll happily accept the label. It’s no skin off my nose.

Secondly, I want to address the fact that the commenter began his comment by stating that he echoes my sentiments about his president toward my prime minister. Basically, all I want to say here is…okie dokie. Yay for you? Have I ever defended Justin Trudeau? No, seriously, find me anywhere on my social media or any other public forums where I praised Trudeau and acted like he’d never done a thing wrong since he’s been in power, and I will humbly accept my wrongs. But the fact of the matter is that I don’t generally talk politics, and if I do I’m exceptionally harsh when it comes to all politicians because I think they’re all crooks in their own way. So no, I’ll definitely not defend our prime minister for some of the stupid shit he’s done. But any idiocy conceived by our PM does not, in any way, change the facts of any idiocy done by the USA’s president. That’s like saying that can’t thing American food is gross because you think Canadian food is gross. It’s a complete nonsense argument.

Thirdly, going along with the previous note, I just wanted to quote this bit: “he isn’t as corrupt at yours, as politically correct as yours and if all you know about our President is what you read about him in the mainstream media, then you’re just a closed minded bigot like the major amount of Canadians.” Sorry, that made me snort. I’m not even going to comment further one way or the other. Think about it what you will. It just another giggle out of me.

Lastly, the commenter closed with a bit of “advice”: basically that I should keep my political opinions to myself unless I want to lose current and/or potential followers. And you know what? That is absolutely true. However, I want to point out two issues with that logic.

The first is that this is not a “political opinion”. My rant was based on the fact that I’m seeing people doing positively deranged (hey there’s that word again!) things because they got the idea from someone they idolize who has no education on the topic. It doesn’t matter if it’s the president, a musician, an athlete, or your bloody grandma. If someone with no medical training at all gives you advice on how to ward off a deadly disease and you jump on that advice without even doing a modicum of personal research, sorry…you’re a fucking moron. Yep, that’s my opinion. Take it to the bank. But it’s not a political one because it has nothing to do with the fact that he’s the president. It has to do with the fact that he’s, I repeat: NOT A FUCKING DOCTOR.

The second issue with the commenter’s statement is simply this… Yes, I understand that opinions, these days especially, are like a double-edged sword. Expressing them may get me floods of followers or a drought of them. The thing is, I couldn’t care less. If someone looks at the first real, strong opinion I’ve ever expressed on my blog and decides I’m officially someone not worth paying attention to: good for you. There’s lots of people I don’t pay any attention to for the exact same type of reason. That’s your choice. But it’s also my choice to say what I feel and mean and not worry about what that might mean about my subscriber count next month. As much as I’d love for it to be reality, I’m a logical enough person to understand that I’ll probably never pay the bills with my writing or YouTube channel or social media, so why would I drive myself insane trying to be a perfect little picture of myself that couldn’t possibly offend a single soul because she has no opinions, just so I can up my sub count?

Nah. Screw that. You were right about one thing, commenter: they’re my opinions and I’ll express them if I want to. If that means some people decide they never want to see my presence again on the internet, well, that’s the price I pay, I guess! Boo-hoo for me. 😛

And that’s the last I’ll say about that. I’ve had my fun and said my piece, and the whole ordeal really isn’t worth spending any more of my time or energy on.

On to the goals, bitches!


Goal #1: Be Healthier

Phewwww….being healthy is so hard you guys! Does anyone want to be my personal chef/dietitian, because I’m pretty sure that’s what I actually need in order to succeed.

  • Eat better (and less) – I had a bit of an epiphany later in the week after several days of sneaking snacks every time I turned around. The long and short of it is that I think I’m addicted to sugar. Like, properly addicted. I seem to be incapable of just having a small treat and being happy with that. A small treat turns to cravings, which turns to constantly grabbing things whenever I see them, which turns into suddenly being several hundred calories over my daily limit. Not only does that negate the hard work I’m doing with P90X-2, but it also seems to give me mood swings. Basically the sugar-high wears off, I feel like shit, and I get cranky, depressed, and mopey, which makes me crave more sugar. Therefore I’m trying to cut back almost entirely on processed sugars. It’s exceptionally difficult, because I have a sweet tooth like no other, but I’m trying to fight the cravings with fruit to see if I can ween myself down from the insanity a bit. So far it seems to be going okay, although I will admit to nearly giving in multiple times already.
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  • Drink more water – I mentioned last week that, despite getting plenty of water, I suspected that I might actually need some more. So I’ve been trying to incorporate that extra water into my diet over the past week. It seems to be going well, and I think it’s helping with fatigue. Maybe. We’ll see.
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  • Get more exercise – P90X-2 continues! I haven’t missed a day yet, thank goodness, because I don’t think I could ever double up on these exercises in order to catch up. Some of them are just pure agony. I’m definitely starting to get a little better as I go, though. Flexibility is definitely improved, and with some of the jobs I couldn’t even attempt before, I can now do a minimal number of reps. It still feels like I’m a pathetic lump, but there’s no doubt that things are happening, slowly but surely.
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  • Lose 2 lbs per month – As compared to last week at this time, I’ve lost nothing, but neither have I gained anything, so go me! Considering that I’m almost definitely gaining muscle right now, I’m going to call a no-gain week a winner for the time being.
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Goal #2: Be an Author

Once again, writing itself is definitely not an issue. It’s all the other little things that seem to be breaking me.

  • Write 500,000 words throughout the year – I’ve never written so many consecutive days, you guys, and for that alone I’m super proud of myself! That aside, though, this past week in general was just as great as the previous few. My Pacemaker.press goal for the week was 11,660 words, and I surpassed that with 13,536 words. That was almost entirely fanfiction, but I’ve been getting so much lovely positive feedback from stories like “In Silence Our Secrets Lie” that I just can’t resist working on them! And hey, it might not be publishable in it’s current form, but writing is writing and can always be edited and reworked into something else!
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  • Promote published books – There hasn’t been a lot of promotion going on recently because, to be frank, it’s just not been on my mind as much as other things. I did mention my e-book sale on the livestream Jason and I did last night, but other than that I don’t really have anything to report.
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  • Promote Patreon & exclusive content – I already mentioned that my brain has been stuck in fanfiction mode, but now that we’re well into May I definitely have to decide on at least one good piece for my Patrons. I have a few different ideas for shorts from the worlds of my novels – I just haven’t settled on actually putting one down on paper yet. Soon, though, I promise!
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  • Work on Author social media – To be frank, social media of all kinds went a little sideways on me last week. There were several days in a row when, speaking bluntly, I just didn’t want to talk to anyone in any form. The reasons why are my personal business, but I’m definitely annoyed with myself for letting it go on as long as it did. To those ends, I lost subs on both the Twitter and Instagram account at once for the first time in ages. It was only 1 sub on the Twitter and 2 on the Instagram, but it still feels like a bit of an annoyance after how good the Instagram in particular had been doing.
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Goal #3: Be a YouTuber

In similar fashion to the author social profiles, YouTube was simply not a concern of mine last week. Just being truthful!

  • Film/edit/upload – That said, we did manage to film one video late in the week, and it was a whopper of one that involved tearing open five built-up My Geek Box sub boxes. Given how long a stretch of time we went without filming anything at all, I’m honestly a little bit surprised that we managed to pull that one off without doing something stupid or things devolving into blows. Surprisingly, it went really well. So now we have two videos worth of footage; we just have to re-learn how to edit on the updated program and new laptop…wish us luck!
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  • Promote and Interact (Social Media) – You can probably guess that the social media for the YouTube channel was about as active last week as the author accounts. And you would be correct! Although, surprisingly, each account gained a single follower. Hardly worth even noting, but it kinda makes me chuckle. The most significant thing that happened with the YouTube socials last week was definitely the little livestream we did last night. It wasn’t anything major – just answering a few questions and unboxing a couple of Dragonball Z figures so we can get them up on the shelves – but it was something to let people know that we’re still alive, at least.
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  • Expand website content – I know I keep saying this, but I really do have every intention on getting some new content up on the website! I just keep getting distracted by things that, frankly, are more important to me at the moment. It’s actually quite flabbergasting to me that with this social distancing stuff I’ve got more free time than I’ve ever had in my life, and yet it seems like I’m trying to cram ten times as many things into that time. It’s flummoxing, to say the least.
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Goal #4: Be Fun!

In every job that must be done, there is an element of fun! Right? Yeah, no, I’ve totally lost my mind…

  • Read 50 books throughout the year – Confession time! Okay, well, first of all, I did finish the first book of “The Walking Dead”, so that’s something for sure. However, while I totally intended to go right on to book two and forward…I kinda…maybe…sorta…a little bit….gothookedonacoupleofnovellengthfanfictions.

    On the one hand, I refuse to feel bad about it, because they were beautifully written, and they’re still reading, FFS, so it’s all good, right?

    On the other hand, I kinda do feel bad about it because I have so many actual books to read! Just on my shelves I must have easily over a hundred books I want to get read, and that’s before even looking at my Kindle Unlimited account! There just needs to be more hours in the day, you guys! Or else I need to become a creature of the night who never requires sleep to survive.
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  • Play video games – I drifted away from games a bit in this past week, but one that I can definitely report becoming horribly addicted to is “Animal Crossing: New Horizons”. And honestly, I feel like my style of gameplay is so wrong compared to what Animal Crossings veterans would do (ha ha ha), but damned if it’s not fun as hell. My only complaint (did I mention this last week?) is that it’s only one island per Switch console, which means that my daughter and I are sharing an island. And, I mean…it’s not like we’re at each other’s throats or anything, but, for example, whichever one of us gets to the console first in the morning picks all the fruit and weeks, picks up all the shells, and so forth, so that there’s very little left for the other to do. With that said, Adrianna has been at least twice as addicted to me, and is currently only a couple thousand bells away from paying off her second-level house, while I’ve still got over a hundred thousand to save up. And I started two days before her! *shakes fist vehemently*.
  • Watch shows/movies – So we finally finished all the available “Brooklyn 99” episodes (is the show continuing?) and therefore had to find other things to watch. We’ve been picking at “Harley Quinn” and “What We Do in the Shadows” as episodes are available, but for something to binge we started catching up on “Food Wars”, AKA “Shokugeki no Soma”. This, my friends, is one of the more ludicrous anime I’ve ever watched, and I love it. It sounds so lame and grounded in reality when you first hear about it (a teenage boy transfers into a prestigious culinary school) but the first time someone takes a bite of something and all their clothes burst off in an orgasmic explosion…yeah. It’s so goddamn stupid, but it’s impossible not to keep watching! We actually just finished all the available episodes today, and now I’m sad. 😛

    As for movies, I don’t think we’ve really watched anything newer lately, but we’ve still been picking at older stuff from the streaming sites. Off the top of my head we watched “Leprechaun” the other day (and showed Adrianna, who thought it was ridiculously wonderful), and we watched a few other older slashers as well.


And that was pretty much that! Not the most productive of weeks, aside from the writing, but not terrible considering the kind of week I was having mentally and emotionally. As an addendum, we’re finally starting to get something that looks like actual Spring weather, and I’m hoping that the shift will help push me into a more awake, alert, happy, and overall productive mood. Hey, a girl can hope and dream, right?

How was your week? Any accomplishments you want to share? Goals you worked hard on? Feel free to share in the comments! ❤