Did you know that today is Victoria Day? Because I didn’t! Not until I went to check the mail and found the post office closed. That’s how much social distancing has my sense of time destroyed. I hardly even know what month it is at any given time. Not that I’m complaining – I’m totally on board with social distancing to keep Covid.19 cases to a minimum. I’m just pointing out that I’m a total wreck mentally and chronologically.
What do I have to say before getting into the goals this week?
Well, for one thing, there’s the aforementioned mental wreckage. It could be due to the social isolation, or it could be one of any of a number of other things, but the result is the same: my brain feels scrambled lately. I’ve mostly noticed it when I’m trying to write. It seems like I can’t concentrate. I’ve actually found myself re-reading the chapter I’m working on multiple times because I keep forgetting what I was trying to do. Normally I would react to such a thing by making sure I’m getting enough sleep, drinking enough water, and making sure to take my vitamins (I’m deficient in a couple), but all those things are fine, so I’m not really sure what the issue is. I’d love if it would stop soon though. I hate feeling like I have “mommy brain” when my kid is nearly a bloody pre-teen.
For another thing, I’ll be mentioning this shortly, but I got sick near the end of the week and was more than a little bit concerned at first. Getting sick during a pandemic…that’s some scary shit right there. I didn’t honestly think that I’d somehow picked up Covid or anything, but you never know, especially since it can take so long to show symptoms.
For a third thing: one nice thing about being stuck at home is that I have plenty of time for Spring cleaning. By no stretch of the imagination am I saying that my house is clean, but I’ve definitely been getting lots of little things done here and there. For instance, I can actually SEE all the food that’s in my deep freeze now. And I’ve managed to straighten up the reading/writing room so that you can actually see the bloody floor. Baby steps, my friends, lots and lots of little baby steps.
Okay, I suppose that’s enough random babbling for now: on to the goals!
Goal #1: Be Healthier
Bwa ha ha ha ha ha ha ha…okay, sooo… I’m not going to get too down on myself, because the fact of the matter is that I did really try. The problem is that later in the week I got suddenly struck down with a random bug of some kind that hit hard and fast, without warning, and put me out of commission for pretty much the entire weekend. And if you know me at all, you’ll know that being sick does stupid things to my stomach.
- Eat better (and less) – First off, I know this is the complete opposite of how most people react to sickness, but ever since I was a kid being sick has, counter-intuitively, made me ravenously hungry. Your guess is as good as mine. But the point is that during those days that I was feeling like crap, I ate a lot of really shitty food. In particular, I downed a ton of carbs. The result was that I pretty much undid the first three weeks of P90X-2 in three days. *cough cough*
It’s not all bad though. The first part of the week was good, so it’s not like I rubber-banded in the opposite direction or anything. But bad things definitely occurred as a result of my sickly need for massive quantities of comfort food.
- Drink more water – There was a bit of a hiccup when I was sick, because even though I get ravenous during those times, I also get lazy and refuse to get up and get drinks. That said, I’ve been drinking a lot more water in general lately, and it seems to be helping a bit with cravings and the like. I’m still a total monster, food-wise, but I’ve been getting better. I think. Maybe? We’ll see.
- Get more exercise – Obviously exercise went by the wayside while I was sick. Luckily one of the days I was sick was a rest day, so that didn’t throw me off too much. I managed to catch up on the day I missed afterwards (I’d already done my exercises before I started to feel bad that first day), so overall nothing too bad occurred on this front.
On a related note, some of the exercises are starting to get easier, and some more of the ones I couldn’t do at all are starting to become possible, so that’s good to see happening. It’s difficult to see progress in those first few weeks, so I’m happy to be able to report at least these little things.
- Lose 2 lbs per month – SHHHHHHHHHHH-
Yeah, no, I don’t want to talk about it. This was the major downfall of getting sick. I just ate too much and moved too little, and now I’ve gone back to where I started. Fuck my life, etc etc.
Goal #2: Be an Author
I expected to accomplish more last week, particularly considering the totally reasonable goal Pacemaker.press was asking of me, but between the fuzzy brain I mentioned and the weekend of being sick, I didn’t pull off nearly as much as I was hoping.
- Write 500,000 words throughout the year – That said, I did still manage to kill my Pacemaker goal. It was asking for 6524 words, and I ended up writing 7622. That’s pretty decent, I think, considering that I was curled up in bed (or on the couch) for two full days (and a bit of a third). I’ve been focusing most of my attention on “In Silence Our Secrets Lie” because it’s nearly finished now, and while I’ve loved writing this fanfic it’ll be nice to have something crossed off the list.
- Promote published books – So, here’s the ridiculous thing… I decided to finally look into paid advertising – at least to see what the options are and what I can possibly afford – and that led me to Book Bub, which seems to be considered the best option for ROI. The problem is that before you can actually purchase advertisement from them, you have to ‘claim’ your author profile…and while it’s normally a simple process that involves searching up your books and pointing to them to say “those are mine”, none of my books actually showed up in the search. So I had to do a manual claim, which involves waiting for someone to check out my claim and ensure that it’s real. Annnnnnnd, that was about a week ago now. I’ve been checking, but my account still shows “pending approval”, and I can’t do anything until that happens. Very annoying. But I guess I’m heading in a direction (judgement pending on whether it’s a good direction).
- Promote Patreon & exclusive content – Phew, so…I really need to get something up the Patreon soon. We’re halfway through the month, FFS. Yeah, I kinda suck, there’s no two ways about it. *cough cough*
That said, I found something the other day that I might share with my Patrons just to see what they think. It’s an unfinished short story I started scribbling out a while back and then totally forgot about it. I don’t really have the time right now to go transcribing it, but I happened to write it in my Rocketbook, so I might just give the pages a scan and post them as image files. My writing is tiny, but if they’re image files they could be easily blown up, and my writing is fairly impeccable so I don’t see anyone having trouble reading it. Anyway, it’s a thought! I’ll look into it more tonight.
- Work on Author social media – I’m starting to see a pattern when it comes to all my social media accounts… The first half of the week goes pretty well, and then the second half completely falls apart for any variety of reasons. This week it was, of course, getting sick. Honestly, you’d think that feeling like shit and cuddling up in bed would mean MORE time spent on my phone, but I spent most of my sick time either passed out, stuffing my face, or watching movies.
With all that said, my author Twitter account lost a follower, but the Instagram account gained 7. Those seven people were almost definitely drawn in by posts about my Good Omens fics, so hi again, GO fandom! The Twitter account, well, that’s another story. To be fair, I hardly ever say anything of note on that account, nor do I interact much with other people’s. Making a note: talk to more people on Twitter.
Goal #3: Be a YouTuber
Fffffffuuuuuuu- What day is it? What week? What year? *looks desperately around for help*
- Film/edit/upload – Okay, so, honestly…fml. *ahem*
No, but basically, Jason has put a veto on any more filming until we pull off actually posting the two vids we already have filmed. And I honest do agree with him, because otherwise we’ll end up with a ton of footage and no motivation to edit it, because that’s the hardest part.
That said, we’ve been focusing on the editing aspect…which hasn’t been going incredibly well. There were several hiccups because of the new computer, the first of which was that lots of necessary files (like our opening, special images we import, and so on) were all on Jason’s old computer. And since said old computer has been dying a very slow and painful death, such that it takes nearly fifteen real-time minutes just to BOOT UP, getting those files transferred to the new computer was a hassle and a half. Then there was the fact that both of us had to try to learn the new version of Adobe Premiere, which isn’t hugely different, but different enough to cause lots of little aneurysms. Then Jason has to learn the new version of Photoshop, which IS hugely different and is causing major headaches as he can’t figure out how to do any of the stuff he’s used to doing. Etc, etc, ad nauseum. Basically…at some point in the near future there’s going to be a goddamn video, but it’s been dragging out an unwarranted quantity of blood, sweat, and tears in its wake.
- Promote and Interact (Social Media) – See what I said about the author accounts above. Being sick just makes me not want to interact with people, I suppose. My sickly siesta didn’t really affect the YouTube accounts though. Twitter stayed exactly the same and the Instagram lost 2 followers. Honestly, if I ever see the Instagram account manage to get past 1715 and STAY past that number, I’ll feel like a bloody miracle has occurred. But now that we’ve been getting some decent weather, maybe I’ll start wandering outside to take some fun toy pics and maybe that’ll start attracting some new people….hey, a girl can dream.
- Expand website content – Yeah, I know, you’re getting sick of hearing this, but I actually was intending to start writing some fun, non-video-related blog posts last week. It didn’t happen. Sue me. I was sick, and when I was writing I just wanted to write something fun. SUE. ME.
Goal #4: Be Fun!
I’m gonna throw caution to the wind this week and state that I spent quite a bit of last week being NO FUN AT ALL. Hey, come on, how much fun are you when you feel like crap?
- Read 50 books throughout the year – Nothing to report! Well, I mean, I suppose that I could report that I read three more novel-length alternate-universe Good Omens fanfics, but I can’t report that stuff on Goodreads, sooooo….
In my defence they were all really good! Seriously, some of these fic writers should consider changing the names and distinguishing characteristics and publishing these stories as proper books. I’m totally going to have to post a list of my favorites, because some of them are fucking beautiful, I don’t care what anyone says.
- Play video games – My gaming brain has been bouncing all over the place lately. Mostly I’ve been playing little bits of “Animal Crossing” whenever I feel like taking a few moments for myself. I just bought a second room for my house! *shakes fist at Tom Nook*
I also got back into “Borderlands 3” a few days ago though. I spent so much time trying to gain levels and find better gear so that I could beat that goddamn Katagawa Ball that now I’m pretty much running right into the middle of hoards of enemies and twirling around with guns a’blazin. Which, honestly, is quite fun, so…yup! It’s allllllll good.
- Watch shows/movies – The big story here for this week is that while I was sick Jason and I watched all five “Phantasm” movies over the course of two evenings. They are required watching for horror fans, in my opinion, but man…do they ever make no goddamn sense. The timelines and flashbacks and constantly changing random details for no particular reason really screw with your head. By the end of the fifth movie I honestly wasn’t sure if ANY of it had actually happened, or if it was all just one guy’s dementia dream, or what the fuck. Seriously, watch that series and tell me that you can make any goddamn sense of it.
Aside from that, we finished catching up on “Food Wars” and started watching random episodes of “Gintama” while we still have our free trial of Crunchyroll. Both shows are totally worth watching for different reasons, but also because they’re both bat-shit insane.
So that was my second week of May! I wasn’t the greatest, all things told, but as a result of things that happened throughout the week I’m hoping that THIS week will be better. I’m not going to, like…bet on it or anything, but a girl can cross her fingers and hope for the best, right? Right. MAXIMUM EFFORT!
How was your week? Any accomplishments you want to share? Goals you worked hard on? Feel free to share in the comments! ❤