Do you ever wonder why your willpower seems to be a floundering kind of thing that changes from day to day, never reliable, never a certainty?
I do. Just thought I’d mention that.
The past week has been…off, somehow. I’m not entirely certain why. Part of it could be the simple fact that we finally finished all we were doing with the basement and the filming for Rob’s documentaries; completing a lot of hard work, after all, makes you feel almost as though you’re owed the time to sit around and do bugger all. Part of it could also be the fact that the seasons have begun to change, and a common side effect of the sudden shift in temperature and amount of sunlight in a given day is that we’ll begin to feel lazy and sluggish. Part of it could be that bad news of the financial variety makes one feel like a useless piece of crap that can’t take care of their family, which has the counter-intuitive consequence of making one want to curl up in a ball and refuse to move while absorbing the extent of their uselessness.
Part of it could easily be that I hit a wall and am a lazy bitch who needs a really good kick right in the arse.
There are a number of perfectly reasonable explanations, is all I’m saying.
With that established, I would like to first state that I did, in fact, get shit done this week. It was simply only the shit that required nothing more from me than to sit on my ass with my phone, my Chromebook, and/or my drawing tablet.
Okay, that’s not entirely true either. I did get some amateur gardening done as well…I managed to successfully grow tomato and cherry tomato plants this summer, so I thought I’d also try my hand at a few winter-hardy options like garlic and onions, and spent a bit of time ripping up a section of our back yard for the planting. So there is that.
Did you know that you can occasionally grow new plants from plain old kitchen scrapes? Like, the bottom part of a bunch of celery can be chopped off, stuck in some soil, and will actually grow a whole new celery plant? How cool is that? YouTube, man…you can still occasionally learn some sweet stuff on there.
Okay, so, instead of going back and forth on whether I actually accomplished anything worth talking about last week, let’s just take a proper look at things and see what happened.
Well, let’s get the really negative stuff out of the way right from the get-go.
Firstly, exercise. I mentioned last week that I had restarted the ’10 Rounds’ program. Then I stopped. Immediately. And the ridiculous thing is that I don’t even have an excuse. Not even a mockery of an excuse. I simply…didn’t continue to do any more of it. And then I proceeded to feel like crap about it. But that crappy feeling did not, in fact, convince me to get up off my ass and do anything. I want to blame the seasonal changes, because we had a lot of dark days last week that just made me want to curl up under a couch blanket and refuse to come out… And honestly, I probably could blame the seasonal changes, because S.A.D. is a thing that I do suffer from, and it can be a right awful bitch under the right (wrong?) conditions… But, I feel like that’s probably a cop-out. Someone boot me in the arse already. Seriously.
Even worse than the lack of exercise, however, is how I ate all week. I made a few adult decisions here and there, but for the most part I found myself being stupidly snacky, grabbing things that my body most certainly did not need, and stuffing myself to the point of sickness instead of just eating what satiated me. Plus junk. Junk in the form of ice cream, in the form of chips, in the form of booze and sweets and na’an bread pizza (although I’m blaming hubby and kid for that one…they keep requesting it!).
The long and short of it is simply that I did awfully last week, and that makes me depressed. Sure, I know, every day is another chance to start again, and all that motivational BS…but it’s nearly October, you guys. I’m looking at the calendar and beginning to realize that, shit…we’ve only got roughly 95 days until 2022, and I haven’t actually accomplished a bloody thing toward this goal. If anything, I may have gone backwards. That’s some epic failure right there, so you’ll excuse me if I want to pout in the corner for a bit.
Okay, this one is a No Pouting Zone, because I actually did pretty well when it comes to creativity last week. For one thing, I finally actually got my butt moving on some artwork. Nothing complete, but some definite forward momentum. These currently fall under early-access content on my Patreon and Ko-Fi, so you only get thumbnails here for now. ^_~
Firstly we have a soft piece that is going to ultimately be an illustration for ‘The Prince’s Consort‘. It’s mostly done (it will likely remain just line-art with no color), but I want to do a few more details and whatnot before I put it to bed:
Secondly, we have a NSFW piece, so it’s not going to be everyone’s cup of tea. There’s nothing explicitly shown, but I think those who see the full image will be able to lay a wager on what’s happening. *cough* This is just a rough sketch for now, but I like the way it turned out so I’m definitely going to work on it some more when I get a chance.
On the writing side of things, I am pleased to be able to say that I destroyed last week’s Pacemaker.press goal which, honestly, was quite destroy-able. Pacemaker wanted me to write 7593 words, and I demolished that by rounding out to 10,139 words by the end of the week. And I’m not going to lie: it felt bloody good.
Most of the words I wrote last week went toward Kinktober 2021, which I’ve been posting to my Patreon and Ko-Fi accounts and will begin posting to AO3 on October 1st, and I can’t lie…it’s a fun project. Humorously enough, almost all of my entries have been rather soft so far, because when it comes to my GO bois I’m just incapable of being any other way, but the spiciness is still there, believe me. If that’s your sort of thing, I mean. Which it is. For me. *cough*
I’ve been doing a lot of coughing in this post. Hmmm…
This past week I completely and utterly forgot to keep track of any of my down-time activities, and as a result I’m finding it really difficult to remember precisely what I did, so bear with me a bit.
When it comes to reading, I know that I read several fanfics, mostly shorts that I can’t quite remember the names of, but also one longer fic called ‘South Downs‘, in which our bois are actors staring in a regency romance. Aziraphale is gay and has been out for ages, but Crowley has gone all this time truly believing that he is straight and just doesn’t particularly enjoy sex. As the result of filming the intimate scenes of the romance, he slowly comes to realize that he is queer in some manner or another because he is very attracted to, and in love with, Aziraphale. There are, of course, consequences to this sudden self-discovery. The story is beautifully written and does a great job of addressing all sorts of the kinds of issues one would face coming out in middle-age (not to mention when in the public eye), and is also super-cute, occasionally SUPER-hot, and very heartwarming. Two thumbs up for sure. I absolutely demolished the 76k word count in a few days.
On the gaming side of things, I really didn’t do anything at all, aside from a few rounds of the Pokemon Trading Card Game with the kid. Hubby finished playing ‘Hades’ on the PS5, and it was such a fun game to watch play out, but I’d like to experience some more of it for myself so I might carve out some time for that over the next week.
And finally, when it comes to watching stuff, we’ve been all over the place recently. The first thing that comes to mind is that we recently watched ‘Dead Sushi’ with the kid. It is an absolutely batty Japanese b-movie about killer sushi that comes to life and starts murdering people. It’s exactly as ludicrous as it sounds, but the people who made it knew exactly what they were creating, so it’s the enjoyable kind of ludicrous. The kid was laughing herself foolish at a few scenes, and officially declared it hysterical afterwards.
I don’t know if I mentioned it before, but hubby and I have been watching a show called ‘A.P. Bio’ at suppertime. It’s about a shamed Harvard philosophy professor who gets trapped teaching highschool biology, but instead of actually teaching he uses his class as a place to plot the downfall of his rival. I wasn’t sure about it during the first few episodes, but the longer it went on the more I was enjoying it. It’s pretty damn funny sometimes. Worth a watch if you’re looking for a comedic show.
I know there were some other things I watched last week as well, but damned if I can remember what they were, so screw it. I’ll just try to remember to actually record things this week. 😛
That’s pretty much that, I should say. So what do you guys thing? Successful week or no? I’d say it was definitely successful in certain areas, but a definite flop in others. :O
Here’s for a better week next week, right? Right.
Feel free to let me know how your year is going so far! Do you have any big goals? Specific plans? Anything awesome on the horizon? Share what’s going on with you! ❤